"In the End,
we will remember not the word of our enemies,
but the silence of our friends."
-Martin Luther King Jr.
This post has nothing to do with my husband... if you saw this an panicked thinking I'm talking about a relapse, no worries. Currently he is as "fine" as he can be all things considered.
My last post I wrote about my frustration with LuLaRoe, it was about a silly launch of black products, that were hyped up and then only a few people got. Top retailers who already have mansions and fancy cars and hang out with the owners posted themselves in front of LITERALLY 100s of boxes bragging about all the Noir they had scored. Then to add insult to injury these same sellers managed to sell those black items in MYSTERY BAGS consisting of three OTHER leggings, or Carlys, or whatever. People paid for three extra items just to get a black item in these big groups, all while I was trying to provide personalized customer service to my tiny but loyal group. I felt like I let them down, and almost threw in the leggings.
I was hurt, and angry, and felt betrayed. Our "apology" from one of the owners basically consisted of a story about a concrete job, a few crocodile tears, and this...(This is an actual quote... I'm not kidding. I couldn't make this up if I tried!)
"Sometimes when life hands you lemons, you just have to suck it up."
I should have submitted my resignation right then, but I was scared, we were broke, and it was right before the holidays. In addition, I didn't want my husband to find out that even though I had been telling him I could return any unsold merchandise and get 90% of what I paid back, there was new LuLaMath that made a refund near impossible, in fact I saw others who resigned and were told that they were not eligible for ANY refund at all... (think negative amounts here) and I didn't resign.
I'm ashamed to admit that I did just "suck it up" but the koolaid I had been drinking no longer had any appeal to me. I couldn't bring myself to watch home office trainings, I became disenchanted with what was once something I was so passionate about, I ordered more stuff hoping that I'd get something someone would buy, but ended up with more Dorito prints, and even the infamous "worma" to add to my "larvma" and the rest of the items sitting in my already overflowing LuLa Garage.
I worried about things like adverting sale prices, or discounting Disney items, because that is against the rules! Maybe it's being raised Catholic, but I'm a rule follower. I try to do what is right, and that's why today I submitted my resignation to LuLaRoe. I'm still scared, and we're still broke, but it's time for me to bless and release things I CAN control feeling guilty about.
Things like supporting a company that claims to bless the lives of families, but thanks to some math that nobody understands, your 90% refund of unsold merchandise can actually be a negative number.
Supporting a company that chooses instead to cut ties with NDSS rather than terminate the contract of a consultant who mocked people with special needs.
Things like giving preferential treatment to the "top sellers' while telling the rest of us that these highly sought after items won't "make or break" our business.
Things like leaders who do nothing about consultants who refuse to accommodate people with special needs.
I just can't anymore.
I've FINALLY realized that I'm no more than a dollar sign to the people higher up the food chain, and while they claim to "love us" they only love our money, and they have enough of mine.
I am very appreciative to those of you who have earnestly supported my efforts. I was able to keep our family afloat (if you don't count all my credit card debt) while my husband was in the hospital, and while he needed those first months and months of 24 hour care. I'm thankful for that, and I've met some amazing people along the way.
I'm probably going to wind up losing a lot more money because of my decision, but some things are worth more than money, like my integrity. I can't represent myself as a LuLaRoe consultant anymore... it's just not me.
So if you are interested I've got a bunch of stuff in my garage you might want to buy. It is cozy stuff.. and I'm sure to have a deal for you, especially if you want a worma...
See light, be light.
Be kind always.
God is good. All the time.